Friends. That's what we are going to talk about today. I feel like I have been searching for friends for forever.
I went to a small private school my entire life. I was friends with who I was friends with because they were in my class for years on end. Thankfully, those friendships have developed into much more than "I am your friend because I have known you for 12 years."
I also went to the same church for a really long time. My other group of friends are from church. and I love them dearly. However, not a single one of them lives nearby.
Speed up to present time:
I have lots of good friends at work. They are funny, and sometimes we hang out outside of work. It is always a blast.
I have several friends at church. Those are in different stages of relationships.
Those friendships I developed when I was younger are pretty strong because most of them I talk to on a regular basis or if we don't don't talk on a regular basis, we are able to pick up right where we left off.
Here's the problem I am struggling with: I want refrigerator friends. (Meaning-I am comfortable to come over to your house and eat whatever from your fridge without asking and you are able to do likewise.) ***Let me state, that I do have one of these nearby, and I don't want that person to think I don't consider them in this category, I do!
I want to be vulnerable with this person. I want to talk about all those things that I call my faraway friends and talk about. I want to come over when my husband is monopolizing the tv. I want you to stop by whenever. I want you to invite yourself over for dinner. I want you to sit on my couch and eat junk food and watch Real Housewives.
I have been looking for friends like this for years, since college. Why is it so hard? I feel like I put forth effort. I am always looking for people to invite over for dinner. Maybe they will be my fridge friend. But then I find out that they already have enough fridge friends or they are in a different stage of life than me and that doesn't work for them. (Regarding the stage of life thing, I think it is a load of crap. My best friend lives hundreds of miles away and has a baby, and we make it work. I think if we live in the same town, we would be able to make it work.)
I don't understand what else I have to do. Do these friends exist? Am I wishing for something that is intangible?